Journal Challenge - Day 15 - Letter - Open on 12/11/2025

 *Write an encouraging letter to your younger self

Hey girl, 

You are awesome and you are doing the best you can. You have achieved so much in your life. The courage you have had to move countries, twice, without having a real prospect of what you going to do or where you are going to stay. And now, look at you! You are well loved and appreciated in the company you work at. You have lovely apartment in a nice area. You have few really good friends you can count on. And your family always supports you, even with the crazy ideas of moving.

You have learned a lot about yourself in the last couple of years and you are continuing to grow and learn and improve yourself. It takes time, but its the journey and it will never become easier. But you fight through!

You are becoming more and more financially accountable. You have paid off your debt and won't be back in this situation ever again! You have saved some money and spending it on experiences that create memories rather than short term pleasure items. You own beautiful clothes and shoes and household items that you are proud of and that serve you! You have a style and grace about you! 

You are fit and strong and keeping yourself in check with eating healthy and keeping active. It's been an up and down journey with the weight and looks, but you are finally here where you are happy and confident. You are part of community that cares about each other and fitness is big part of your daily life. Whether that means dancing all night, going on hikes, climbing or bouldering, you are spending your time being active! 

You have learned and grown a lot within the industry and are managing yourself. It could be within a bar where you are a managing partner and operations manager, or/and freelancing as an operations/office manager at your own company. This allows you to travel to places you have always wanted to go - back to States, to Japan, Indonesia and South America.

You are amazing, and don't ever doubt yourself. Yes, there might be some hard times, but you always come out on top. There will always be a way! Make it happen! Go girl!

Journal Challenge - Day 9 - My own company

 *Write about a time you enjoyed your own company.

Well, this is quite an easy one. I almost always enjoy my own company. 

Very recently I spend Sunday: doing a fun colour run, went to theatre and had dinner on my own. Even though the run would have been more fun with a company, but as I didn't even run, I think it was great. And I danced, like nobody was watching. Theatre was a modernised Shakespeare play, while still using the old language, so at points it was hard to understand, but overall, a little bit of culture that makes you think a bit more. And the dinner, after a long and a bit tiring weekend, was exactly what I needed. No one talked to me, no one bothered, I could just enjoy my burger and a beer, get a discount and walk home. Quite perfect day. 

Journal Challenge - Day 7 - Joy!

*What brings you joy?

Doing the little projects. Like today:

Getting ready (prepping) all the necessary things for the event. 

Bringing the games to the office.

Getting the cards done to add to my costume. 

Doing the decorations to give a bit more spirit to the place. 

Ordering the soft drinks for the night.

Journal Challenge - Day 6 - A skill

 *Name a skill you're good at. How do you feel when you are performing that skill?

I like being prepared. I am prepared. And that makes me organised. I feel good, accomplished because there are a lot of things that could go wrong and being prepared takes out the unknown out of the equation and any issues can be dealt with before rather than having to stress about it later - on the day or last minute. Makes me happy that I can actually think ahead of time, check what needs to be done and avert any problems. 

When sometimes things do happen and I haven't thought about it, feels like I haven't done my job. Even though I know that I tend to be a lot more prepared and ready for certain occasions than most people, I still sometimes don't give myself enough credit.

Note for future. I am doing a great job! 

Journal Challenge - Day 4 - A wish

 *What is something you have now that seemed like a wish back then? How do you feel knowing that you have it now?

I wish to work at Trident Park. It feels like accomplishment, but at the same time I feel like I'm not giving myself enough credit in achieving it. Or maybe the wish was not big enough in the first place so achieving it doesn't seem as big. 

At the same time, in general, am I avoiding to allow myself to have these big wishes just not to feel disappointed if I don't achieve it? What is the root cause?

Also, I wish to live and succeed in Malta. I am now living here, working and enjoying life. Of course, I have a well-paid job, probably better than a lot of OM in Malta. But is it well-rounded success? Again, I feel like I'm being hard on myself. 

Some wishes for future?!

I wish I travelled without worrying about money, security.

I wish to be debt free by end of middle of next year!

I wish I was fit and feel good about my body.

Journal Challenge - Day 3 - Memories

 *Write about the last memory that made you happy. What does it feel like in your body?

ANY TRAVEL EXPERIENCE.

Especially if it is with my friend - Jolanta :) It's always fun and adventurous. Different experiences, new foods, couple of drinks. It makes me miss her a lot and all the good times we have spent together. But it also gives me a lot of great emotions and memories and longing to go travelling again. And with Jolanta is it the freedom and carefree days that make these trips so memorable. 

Malta

Marocco

Marocco

London

Journal Challenge - Day 2 - Skills

 *Write about a skill you are grateful for. Why?

Hard skills represent things you've learned to do or use—like tools, technologies, or proficiencies. Soft skills are interpersonal traits you have developed over time—like effective communication, dependability, or generosity.

Hard Skills

I'm grateful to be able to speak more than one language, multilingual. Even though sometimes I feel like I am forgetting words in one or the other language, I am capable to hold a conversation in Latvian and English. English has become commonly used language, as most of the everyday conversations and work is done in English. If I would spend more time listening, reading and communicating in Russian, I am convinced I could hold a conversation in Russian too. 

It's sometimes really hard to judge yourself, in a good way. To evaluate your skills as I seem to just have them and think that most people would have them and that does not make me feel special. And I feel like I do know how to use certain systems, but not to the extent that I would call myself expert. 

Soft Skills

I'm definitely organized. I like things neat and tidy as well as I like to be prepared for things and think through what needs to be done and what needs to be ordered (for example at work, for kitchen). Sometimes although, making lists and being super organised is tricky, but lately I have become more open-minded and open to changes as well as spontaneity. So to say that I have adaptability to certain situations, people's characters - I'm pretty good at it. Or maybe it's the fact that I'm trying to avoid conflict. And I feel like I'm good at problem solving too. Although I am really good at making things more complicated that they should be. 

I'm grateful for the last couple of years, where I have a lot more focused on myself and learned about how and why I do certain things as well as act certain way. And I want to learn more, I want to read more (so it's really frustrating that I choose to spend my time in front of TV, watching something that doesn't give me any knowledge, just distracts me from the focuses I want in my life)