...just me...

​The feminine and masculine energy - we all have both, in different proportions. We need to learn how to balance one with the other. Be aware of the five senses, use them all to be aware and experience the world and people around you - touch, smell, sound, sight & taste. Experiment with shutting out one to enhance another. Awareness. Maybe you reverse the desire you feel for everyone, and feel that desire towards yourself. Allow it to empower you. You are a temple. Your body is a temple. It is beautiful and pure. Be grateful for your temple. Sat Patim Dehi  /newest book on my shelf - Who’s your dosha, baby? by Lissa Marie Coffey/

​As Simon Sinek would say, you gotta learn to have uncomfortable conversations. And I’m about to have one tomorrow. I really think I should look at it more of like a boss talking to employee, a manager to subordinate if needs to be. And to be strict and fair. Follow up with an email. Copy in Oksana. The right thing to do, official thing to do.  But how do I start it? With which aspect? Hopefully sleep will help me with that…  Update on above: Went pretty well. I stated the fact. She understood. Email to be sent with reiteration. 

Have listened to couple of interviews with Simon Sinek, and I think he has amazing insights about how we can improve our lives. Our relationships. Our jobs. Our look on life. Every suggestion comes with an example that perfectly explains why and how it works. I want to read his book, but he has so many. Which one to start with? Very good question. P.S. to journal. Is it enough to write something like this? Or. What does it mean to journal? TO JOURNAL (verb) - to keep a personal journal  - to enter or record daily thoughts, experiences, etc., in a  journal Soooo.. It does. I am missing the daily part 🙏 But! I am doing so much better than years before, and that I should be proud of! And I am! 🧘🏻‍♀️

Yesterday was so busy, so yes, I missed a day.  And today was pretty much written off. I really am too old for this shit, who do I need to impress by going out and drinking so much? What is the point? At least I listened to (almost) two modules of the event management course. Productive weekend, here I come! G.xx

14:51 Missed the notification again! What's the point of them? Yesterday morning was really busy, actually the whole day was quite busy. Good meeting in the afternoon.  15:13 Wes is leaving. Onwards and upwards, as they say. It's a shame that hard working people are leaving, but I guess it kind of makes sense. If you are not appreciated for your hard work here, you will be elsewhere.  23:31 Have spent most of the day in front of the screen, and not doing anything really useful. Lots of Tik Tok, Instagram and Amazon Prime.  Wtf. 

So it has been a busy morning. But I am really happy I started today with a gym session.  Feeling really good about myself. Can't believe I actually on regular basis am going to gym, working out on my own and pushing myself. I'm sure if I had a trainer, I would push myself even more.  I'm excited to find out what my split is. Found my notes from when I attended Hyrox London event as spectator. Here they are:  It’s only you! Everyone else is having their own race, they are doing their own lap, they are at different point in competition Take your time Take quick breaks Doesn’t matter how fast you are doing one station! Someone will be faster, someone will be slower Put yourself closer to speakers! Burpees, stay low, don’t stand up Start with burpee, hands close to your feet Sled pull - chalk! #100wallballs4breakfast Wallballs. Split them into increments Skierg and Rowerg - find the pace, stick to it. Don’t start too hard. Need gloves?! Prep lunch, snacks for before & espe

Shall we start this again? I feel like I have tried to make journaling an everyday occurrence for couple of times now. How long will I last this time? Maybe I need to put it in calendar, block off some time during day. And have a notification? Probably won't work, there are so many notifications already and most them are being ignored. Notification detox might work.  Reminder put - 10am daily until Sunday /Lauris Reiniks - Tik Balti/