Get your shit together

Every challenge is a learning opportunity.

I'm glad that part of the month is over. It's been quite hard to get over the depression that is constantly floating around work. People don't see the purpose of coming in to office as lots of projects that people were working on have been cancelled/postponed and there is not much one can do in the office space. With breakfast and afternoon tea cancelled, there are less and less people in the office, which makes the space empty. 

I have come to terms that there is as much as I can do. So I really need to focus on personal development and research for Indonesia adventure. I think I need to think about it as half a year adventure. Plan it so. And if anything develops and goes the right track, an opportunity pops up and I can benefit greatly by staying or move to another country, why not. 

So. Plan. End of June (need to find out how to change AirBaltic flight) sort my belongings and send them to Latvia. Fly to Latvia, enjoy the Song and Dance festival, head to Dubai for a weekend and then transfer to Indonesia (inside trip includes flight from Bali to Kupang (hooooow the f**** that is gonna happen?) where I will be greeted by Martina and Tom and then off to catch a ferry to Rote Island). Have a flight back for Christmas period. 

Focus right now would be:

- sell as much stuff as I can - clothes, shoes, books, gardening, kitchen, alcohol, design... 

- do any cash in hand event jobs I can get my hands on...

- practise and build my Instagram following through yoga....

So what am I worried about? That I won't have enough money to pay for flights, that I won't find a remote job I could do and support myself at least with basic necessitates.

I haven't even thought about hygiene or contact lenses, safety and medical insurance.

The more I think about certain things, the more I feel anxious, but at the same time.. If I don't do this now, when else? Just need to be prepared for all the eventualities. 

What are the basics I need? The flight ticket back from Bali. And extra cash to travel between Rote - Kupang - Bali. Travel insurance. Medical insurance. (£1.5k - £2k a month travel money)

Should I reach out to some Latvians in Indonesia? Maybe there is someone who can fly me to Kupang and someone who has a high speed boat to take me to Rote island. Well, that would be epic!

SuperMoon

-) look back at the month passed

Good things

*travel to Latvia, productive collective sort of stuff at Miera iela, quality time with sister, brother and dad

*personal training sessions and a training plan for next couple of months

*meeting and catching up with Kirsty, Ruta, Kat

Bad things:

*atmosphere at work, redundancies talks

*no consistency with eating patterns, workouts and studying

-) set intentions for upcoming month

Health

*keep track of food daily

*consistency of 4 workouts a week

Business & Career

*events management course (filling out assignments)

*events proposals for three different type of events

Family & Friends

*meeting up with Laura

*calling Jolanta on weekends

Romance & significant other

*date with Cliff

*attending one Thursday session

Finance

*sort out clothes, shoes, books, kitchen equipment I could sell

*read up on investment opportunities

Personal Development

*make two yoga stretching/breathing videos on Instagram

*fill out Why exercises

Fun & Recreation

*take myself on a date, gallery/exhibition visit

*organise a games night with friends/collegues

Spiritual

*meditate in the mornings

*fill gratitude journal daily at the end of the day

The Realisation

Damn....

So I just looked at finances, and my automatic payments. Just to see how many payments are still left on Leap Academy Personal Trainer course... and it struck me... the realisation

I actually booked the course last year March. And I always somehow thought I only booked it in August, so I only wasted couple of months with studies... but actually... it's been almost a year since I booked the course and I have only finished and passed exam on one module...

#NOEXCUSES

It’s weird

How can one be in charge of one’s all aspects of one’s life at all times?

- healthy eating, fasting and socialising

- focusing on one’s work and at the same time, developing oneself within and studying

- keeping a minimalistic lifestyle but having all the things to make life more interesting and easy like games and kitchen tech

- wanting to have someone but being afraid of loosing oneself

- saving money and living life

Gratitude Journaling - HYROX Manchester

*What/who inspired you today?

The community of HYROX, the competitors, the judges. Motivating and inspiring to do more, to push myself more, to go for it, to slay the race. I think I wanna volunteer for one of the next ones.

*What/who brought you comfort?

Emma & Tom made me feel comfortable and ready for the race, and it was quite cute that they are together. It's always nice to see someone who belong together. 

*What/who brought you joy today?

Finishing the race. Even though it took me longer that I thought it would, but I'm happy that I did finish it, but very proud of myself. It brought me happiness finishing each lap, even though some were more walked than ran. And every workout, some made me feel better that others. Very proud of sled push - consistent. Sled pull and burpees were a bit of a shock. Lunges were the ones were I really felt the legs.

Overall, long but great day! 

Happy Friday!

I have been productive this week. Not necessarily at work, but definitely in my personal life. Sorting myself out with some well deserved sports shoes, returning them and then buying the right size.  Organising photo book of my sisters visit. Reading almost every day! Studying almost everyday! Succeeding in fasting. Cooking for myself delicious food, experimenting a little. 

Love the playlist I have right now, based on Depeche Mode - In Your Room song. Lots of Depeche Mode, Massive Attack and some not so well known (to me) artists.

And I bought tickets to Fox & Badge next event, in March. Vikings: Spring Saga! I'm so excited, now I want to learn more about vikings, maybe watch some series/movies, get some inspiration. Research about Latvian vikings - Curonians, coastal warriors...

My emotions today

 *** Zola Blood - Play Out ***

What's the point of launching Spotify AudioBooks if they don't play on the app and you can't open them on desktop?

Hawk's Nest is investing in roof - it's amazing and I'm really happy in how good their business is going.

Why am I being shy? Stupid? Why do I want and don't want relationship at the same time?