Day 1

it's again been a while since i wrote anything. where do i start? i have always skipped starting something or delayed doing something, because i want it to be perfect, and i want to know all about it before i get into it. like starting to write in a beautiful notebook. the first page needs to be perfect.. but then i look back, and yes, first page is perfect, but then the rest of it seems rushed and messy.. so i think it's better to start when you want to and improve over time.. this is why i'll just start. it's snowing here in London and we are in #lockdown3. i'm baking apple cinnamon muffins with oats and no sugar. my day consists of a daily early morning walk with jolanta, book reading, podcast listening and a mix of little projects. as well as netflix, tik tok and instagram scroll. a touch of daily exercise. it's all going well on days when i'm productive and push myself to be #uncomfortable. it's a bit harder in the days when i spend the whole day in front of the screen watching some series and i can't even rememeber what i watched the day later. but over last couple of days, i think i have learned to switch off and focus on things that are important to me. the early mornings with jolanta are important. it's a positive start of the day. and informative. and challenging at times (especially when it's pissing down like crazy). exchange of what we have learned from podcasts, books and courses as well as tik tok is amazing even if sometimes we don't agree with each other, we have learned to agree to disagree. and even more, come to accept that we are different and that the fact that we are different (at this point i'm talking about the general population) makes us amazing. we need to understand that if we all were the same, if all did everthing the same, came to same conclusions and never challenged each other, the world would be a very bleak place. anyway, i'll go back to my muffins and speak tomorrow! g.x