What am I scared of?

-that I will fail

-that I will get hurt

-that I will be uncomfortable

-that I won't be liked

STOP feeling sorry for yourself. make a change. if you are happy alone, why bother going on dates? is it just to fill the social expectation? or just to meet new people? everyones expectation is that you want something more. or is it?

there is no WHEN I have more money

there is no WHEN I live in Malta/Latvia I will do this/that

make a change NOW

don't fool yourself with requirements from society

ADMIT to yourself what is it that you want/like

noone else actually cares

I have to.. want to.. care for me

Am I happy alone?

Am I happy overweight?

Am I happy to have a debt?

What do I want to do with my life?

What do I want to do in my life?

Is there pressure from outside or do I put pressure on myself thinking that others want me to be certain way or do certain things? Is that my imagination?